I would say that my life is very different than it was five years ago. Five years ago, I was going to UVSC, living with roommates in Orem, and was working hard at a crappy job. I was scared of the future and confused about life in general. Now, it's all changed. I'm not the same. I have different views and some different beliefs. Isn't that how everyone is? Can people really live life and say that they're the same person that they used to be?
I know some people don't like the changes that I have made in my life. And I understand that. But it still stings. And I've lost a couple of friendships. And a lot of it is my fault. I've been so afraid that people will not like me now, that I didn't share myself with them.But I'm not completely different. I still love my family and friends. I adore my nieces and nephews. I'm still an X-Files freak. My nostrils still flare when I laugh too hard. I'm still shy and awkward with people I don't know. Animal Cops still makes me cry. I still love a cheesy romance novel, and am obsessed with all things Scottish.
Here I am now. I'm in a different country, to be with the man I love. We're engaged with no date even close to being set. It's not the perfect situation or life, but I'm happy. I'm excited for the future and excited to see what I'll learn in five more years. And that's something that I couldn't say five years ago.
14 witty comment(s):
I can't believe Animal Cops makes you cry! You loser. If it wasn't for that I would totally be friends with you.
I still like you as much as I ever did, which has always been a whole heck of a lot.
I never knew you before....but if Kira loved you then and loves you now, you must have been and still are a fantastic person. Did that make sense?
Everyone has to make their own changes to their lives, everyone has to be themselves. Good fo you.
I am excited you have your holiday playlist up! (and I love you no matter where you live or what your political/religious/marital views/status are. ) Is that enough slashes for you? Good.
Aww... who cares what anyone thinks? As long as you are happy?
I still love you! I wish we'd kept in touch better. I blame myself. I figure as long as you are moving forward and following your heart you are good. We can't kick ourselves over the past. We learn from each stage in our lives and move forward the best we know how and can. I'm so glad you still love everything scottish! One of my fav. memories with you is when we rode tracks to SL to go to the Scottish imports store!!! Good times! I'm glad you are happy!
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hi bonny
cool I finally remembered my password and login. I can write in your blog now :)
i hope you know that i will always think you're cool, no matter what! i like to think that everyone changes with the experiences that they have - they grow and become better versions of themselves. i know that i've done that. i haven't always been comfortable with who i am, but i hope i can be someday. i'm glad we're friends, and that we can be in spite of our differences!
I always felt like as long as I wasn't hurting anyone or destroying property or something, my life was up to me to make decisions about, and I was the person who got to decide who and what I wanted to be.
I'm not who I was five years ago either, in most ways good, in other ways probably not good or bad but just different...
I liked you then; I like you now. And if you hadn't moved to Canada and started blogging, I wouldn't have found you, and we wouldn't have had a chance to renew our friendship, which I am super grateful for. I lost touch with essentially everyone I knew during the last 18 months of high school and never really found most of them again, but I'm glad we can be friends again.
still the Animal Cops thingy.........
Im a little late on this, but i wanted to say DITTO to all the other HS gals and say I love ya girl! Youre the coolest! Im just sad for your sake that your last name won't ever be MacDougal. Maybe Junaid would go for it!?
I think the best compliment in the world would be "you are SOOO not the same!" I don't know about you, all I know is I was a FREAK five years ago. Hooray for living and learning!
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